'here you leave today and enter the world of yesterday, tomorrow and fantasy...'

moving

2006-04-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

i have moved.
www.kerhuiling.blogspot.com

razrv3i

2006-02-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

the phone to die for... damn damn damn cool...

the way children see things

2006-02-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

The Way Children See Things
Shared by Allan Ward

NUDITY

I was driving with my three young children one warm summer evening when a woman in the convertible ahead of us stood up and waved. She was stark naked!
As I was reeling from the shock, I heard my 5-year-old shout from the back seat, "Mom! That lady isn't wearing a seat belt!

MORE NUDITY

A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women's locker room. When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and running for cover. The little boy watched in amazement and then asked, "What's the matter haven't you ever seen a little boy before?"

HONESTY

My son Zachary, 4, came screaming out of the bathroom to tell me he'd dropped his toothbrush in the toilet. So I fished it out and threw it in the garbage. Zachary stood there thinking for a moment, then ran to my bathroom and came out with my toothbrush. He held it up and said with a charming little smile, "We better throw this one out too then, 'cause it fell in the toilet a few days ago.”

KETCHUP

A woman was trying hard to get the ketchup to come out of the jar. During her struggle the phone rang so she asked her 4-year-old daughter to answer the phone. "It's the minister, Mommy," the child said to her mother. Then she added, "Mommy can't come to the phone to talk to you right now. She's hitting the bottle."

OPINIONS

On the first day of school, a first-grader handed his teacher a Note from his mother. The note read, "The opinions expressed by this child are not necessarily those of his parents."

ELDERLY

While working for an organization that delivers lunches to elderly shut-ins, I used to take my 4-year-old daughter on my afternoon rounds. The various appliances of old age, particularly the canes, walkers and wheelchairs, unfailingly intrigued her. One day I found her staring at a pair of false teeth soaking in a glass. As I braced myself for the inevitable barrage of questions, she merely turned and whispered, "The tooth fairy will never believe this!"

SCHOOL

A little girl had just finished her first week of school. "I'm just wasting my time," she said to her mother. "I can't read, I can't write and they won't let me talk!"

DRESS-UP

A little girl was watching her parents dress for a party. When she saw her dad donning his tuxedo, she warned, "Daddy, you shouldn't wear that suit."
"And why not, darling?"
"You know that it always gives you a headache the next morning."

BIBLE

A little boy opened the big family bible. He was fascinated as he fingered through the old pages. Suddenly, something fell out of the Bible. He picked up the object and looked at it. What he saw was an old leaf that had been pressed in between the pages.
"Mama, look what I found", the boy called out." What have you got there, dear?" With astonishment in the young boy's voice, he answered, "I think it's Adam's underwear!"

大年初二

2006-01-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

time at my granny's today was not bad. we ate lots of good food and gambled our time away with blackjack, daidee and mahjong. my two little cousins are the big winners of blackjack. ~~bluffing~~ winning me and my two other cousin's money. but oh well, it's all just for fun. hahaha... daidee was ok, didnt really win or lose much. after that we headed for superbowl to bowl! i must admit, i am not a good bowler. this is like only my 4th or 5th time bowling? you cant expect much from a amateur right? :p after two games, we headed back to my place for mahjong. hahahahahaha... i won quite alot, i 一家赢三家! hahaha... so you can imagine how good the money was. hahahaha... oh ya, the ang bao today was really good. people are really getting more and more generous. hahaha... i think i will save part of it in the bank. the rest, i bet you can guess what i'll do with it. hehe...

大年初一

2006-01-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year!!!
恭喜恭喜恭喜你啊!!!
:))))

i had fun today while visiting. hahaha... i played with lots of kids!
hahaha... took some really cute photos of them too! hahaha... of course, the ang bao is good too! wooohoo... tomorrow i'm going to my grandma's place. gonna slack the day away with black jack, daidee and good food! hahaha... wish me luck! HUAT AR!!! :)

summary of my 3 weeeks

2006-01-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

i here to update finally!!! hahaha... at last, i've got a long break from school! YES! so, got miss me a not?! hahaha...

so many things happened during these weeks that i never come online. i dont know where to start. hmmm...

let me start with my class, 05S54. i dont know why, but i am begining to love this class. there's really just a thin line between love and hate. i think it is because i had begun to see things more open-mindedly. those people that i used to dislike in class are still there but i no longer feel as much hatred as before. now, i just treat them as non-existence or i'll treat them like the way they treat me. like the saying, a tit for a tat. on the whole, i like s54 this year more. everything just seemed to come together somehow. hahaha... oh ya, we also had our mini reunion dinner on wednesday after our cross country. i had a hell lot of fun there! hahaha... the feeling is just so comfortable, so nice, so family. i love! hahaha... i guess it really just takes time for strangers to get close to each other. :)
ms ng, our new ME teacher also decided for us to play the Angel Mortals' game. my mortal is a guy but i'm not gonna say it here. bleah... who knows who reads my blog right?

my sports club activity now is wind surfing! oh yeah!! hahaha... damn cool right! hahaha... the coaches there are cute and handsome too. hahaha... timothy is cute and thai(or thye, i dont know how to spell) is handsome. hahaha. we were supposed to have 3 lessons for windsurfing but i missed 1. so yesterday was only my 2nd session when it was the 3rd for some. which also means that i missed the lesson by the cute coach. hahaha... but it is ok. i still learnt how to surf! hahaha... and i can surf a little now! wooohoo!! hahaha... it was really a good feeling to know that you can finally surf after failing infinite times. hahaha... i guess the scolding i got from thai was the catalyst. allow me to illustrate it. haha...
it was my turn to try and thai was coaching me. so he helped me to lift up the musk and i tried balancing with me. but because i was too nervous and worrying too much, i failed at balancing and let go of the musk and let the whole thing drop down. then thai scolded me, "you know what i see when you let it(the musk) drop down! i see weakness! it shows that you lack concentration and determination! in that second you let it slowly drop down you can actually react instead of falling front with it. no need to worry about it hitting your head. i am holding it for you. you hold onto the musk until the second you fall. this shows your determination! what are you so afraid of?" "because of this(i pointed to my scraped knee)..." "actually it is better to fall on your back then your front because the life jacket will cushion your fall..." with that and i tried again. and this time, i managed to stand (balanced) for a while before falling on my back with the musk like he told me as i wasnt leaning back enough. when i recovered, he told me, "you are now actually doing this. when i say leaning back, you lean your hands back also..." i think i looked blur to him so he said again, " give me your hand... ok, pull against me. more... pull against me. yes, this is how you should lean back..." and once again, i tried. and this time, i SUCCEEDED!!!!! yay!!!!!! i was surfing!!!!! woooohooo!!!!!!! hahaha... i think i 开巧 already! hahaha... but then i met with another problem. i was surfing towards the shore. then i went, " i dont know how to turn!!!!!!" at the top of my lungs. hahaha... then thai tried to shout some instructions to me but it was too soft and sounded like greek to me. so i let go of the musk eventually as i was really too near. i jumped off the board. i was really proud of myself at that time. hahaha... my little sweet moment. hahaha... then i pulled the board back to let joyce have a final go at it. then thai went over and patted me on my back and said, "hey... good job!" hahaha... after hearing that compliment, i felt doubly happy!!! waaahahahaha!!! i've also got one conclusion, the sea hates my right knee. why? because the on the 1st lesson, i fell and bruised my right knee. so there was this big orh chay. then this week, even worse, it bled after my fall to my knee onto the seabed. the funny things is that i fell on both my knees but only my right knee bled. see, testimony to my conclusion. bleah! i think that wind surfing is really a very good sport. it trains the mind. like what thai told me when he was spraying water onto my sail to wash it, "surfing is a very good sport. it is like during a competition, you being lighter but surf with the same big sail as someone heavier than you. do you know why?" "the mind?" "no, it means that you know your body, your mind and when to push yourself. you know you are lighter but you understand your body and mind and manage to surf when the other person cant...(cant remember what he said eactly but something along this line)" hmmm... i think it is really true. when you are surfing, you are really just competing with your mind. once you overcome it, it is actually very simple(i think this is what he told me too). then you will think back, why didnt you thought of it just now. in surfing, the enemy is not the equipment but the wind and your mind. fight the fear of being unbalanced, not the equipment. hahaha... maybe i'll continue on my own outside of sports club. but it is quite ex... $60 for 6 hours. will think through first. hmmm...

i think these are the things that are the most exciting for me during the 3 weeks. of course there were others but these two are the most deeply etched in my mind. so long for now! till the next time... which i dont know after how long again... :)

first week

2006-01-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

i have survived...
a week into the new school term and i am DEAD BEAT. yes. EXHAUSTED. but jc life is just like this isnt it? hardwork and more hardwork, homework and more homework. sigh... :(

i wish i were a jc1 which would be so great for now. i'll get to go for orientation again to play and have loads of fun. but time never repeats itself. so my time as a jc1 is up. i need to move on to jc2. but i just cant believe i am going to be 18. it is just like i turned 17 yesterday and now i am going on 18. oh my god. time really does flies. it is so merciless, giving us no second chance for any one day. there will never be a january 7 2006 ever again. oh my.......

school's starting!!!

2006-01-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
schools starting tomorrow!!!!!
which means i have to travel damn damn far!!!!
darned!!!
hopefully things will be different when school resumes... o.O

the new vs the old

2005-12-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to SAJC @ Potong Pasir at and no, i do not like it. it no longer have the feeling of home. the whole place feels so foreign. so commercialized (quoting from she min). the planning of the school was pretty bad too. it was like they were trying to squeeze alot of things within the limited land space. no doubt everything there is brand new and there were no old furnitures but i still feel that we have downgraded in general. the whole campus is much smaller and there wasnt much scenery anymore. not that the view at SAJC @ Malan Road was superb but at least there was some landscaping; the hills and all. moreover, the hall and classrooms used to be air conditioned. but now at the new campus, the hall and classrooms are not. :(

i still remembered the first time i lay foot in SAJC @ Malan Road. it was their open house. already, at that time, though for the very first time, i knew for sure this is the school for me. i really really felt that i belong to the saints family. i felt so at home and comfortable there. it was as though i've been in the school for ages. maybe what i felt then is what known as the saints' spirit. but now at Potong Pasir, this familiar feeling is gone! GONE!

"give it some time... maybe the school needs you all to do the warming up..." my dad told me. ya, maybe it is true. afterall, the campus at Malan Road was warmed by many seniors before us. well, i'll see how it goes. maybe things might be different when school starts for real with all the boring lectures and long tutorials. o_O

enough of the complains about the new campus, i think the contractors deserve some credit for slogging their guts out when building the school. i heard from ron, one of our school's mentors that two weeks prior to now, he went over to the new campus and saw that everybody was so busy at work, trying to finish on time. they even had to work through the night. hey, i am also a appreciative person ok. though i might complain, i am still grateful to them. :p

here comes the problem of travelling. i have timed. the whole journey to school by bus and train is aproximately 1 hour and 10 minutes from my place, which is taman jurong. oh.my.god. right? luckily my parents are fetching me to the train station either at outram, clarke quay or douby ghourt. thereby shortening my travelling time to about 20-30 minutes. but i will have to spent 1 hour and 10 mintues just to go back home. sigh... why did i even choose SA in the first place... i guess regrets are a little too late now huh? sigh... now, i am trying to devise the fastest way back home. so anyone with any bright suggestions are gladly welcomed to tag/leave me a comment.

LT3

walking in...

hall...

plaza+staff room(2nd floor)...

cafe(1)...

cafe(2)...

kat, sue, me at my fave table(where's my dear shi ying?)

goodbye, SAJC @ Malan Road...

i'm still alive

2005-12-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

i am still alive if you're wondering why i have been mia-ing... :p

photos!

2005-12-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey people! here's the link to 4/5 class gathering photos!http://www.flickr.com/photos/30684543@N00/

here's a little sneak preview...

4/5

the guys!

the girls!(plus adrian... hahaha...)

4/5

2005-12-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

4/5 class gathering last night was smashing hit man! i simply love 4/5. i think it was the only class that kept me smiling whenever i think of it.

4/5, a class consisting of people from different classes and (possibly) different backgrounds. but miraculously, with all her cliques and all, everybody love each other. and yes, we do have our fair share of tiffs and bitching here and there. but ultimately, there's this invisible force holding us together.(most probably van der waal's forces... nono, hydrogen bond is stronger... hahaha...) even as 4/5 became a name in history, her people are still the same. quoting from mrs thai, "i'm so surprised to see that none of you have changed..." hahaha... i am so glad to be part of her. i am also so glad that i went for the gathering yesterday.

i simply love 4/5!!!

*photos are on the way... after i resize and all...*

shitties chalet

2005-12-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

i am back!!! the chalet was FUN man! hahaha... okok, here's what we've done.

first day:
check in
mahjong-ing
movie--the saw
jia min came halfway and scared the shit out of us cos we were at the exciting/scary part of the movie and the whole place was SO dark
dinner--long john silvers
shopping for tibits and drinks at giant
playing and phototaking at the playground
mahjong-ing
asshole dai dee
black jack
bluff
movieS

second day:
frisbee training
brunch at PS
kboxing!!! FUN!!!!!
dinner--zi cha
gaming
movieS

third day:
movie--the longest yard
phototaking
taupok-ing--the guys
heart attack-ing
blind mice-ing
pack up
check out
home sweet home
hit the sack

hahaha... here's the link to the photos http://www.flickr.com/photos/30684543@N00/

chalet!!

2005-12-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

ive got chalet tomorrow!!! at the chervons... very ulu to have a chalet there right? hahaha... but nevermind, its the people that matters the most! haha... i'm going with the rowers plus alfred, xin rui and maybe jia xing. haha... but shit, i've not pack my bag. damn!

What kind of food are you?

2005-12-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

You Are Italian Food

Comforting yet overwhelming.People love you, but sometimes you're just too much.

What Kind of Food Are You?

photos!

2005-12-11T02:37:00.000+08:00

here's the link to the photos of my trip... hahaha... very very random... well, enjoy!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/30684543@N00/

yawn...

2005-12-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

came back from SSC Camp Recreo today. super tired now. 4 hours of seista is not enough... :( wanted to photo blog about hk today... but then, too tired already. so gave up. hahaha...

my trip!

2005-12-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

let me briefly describe my trip to shen zhen and hong kong now. those that i can still remember. haha...

thursday 24/11; shen zhen:
it was a culture shock for me on the first day and i was PISSED. YES, PISSED!!! the attitude the people portray there was REALLY BAD. when you are in a restaurant, they serve you your food by tossing it on the table. when you walk on the street, they will just push and bang their way through. i mean, hello... there's words called 'excuse me' or 'sorry' right?! what's the use of learning it if you are not using it? bleah! they also smoke alot. everywhere you go, you can smell cigarette. even in air con places. horrible man!!!
well, we didnt shop that much on the first day just travelling on the road alot and clearing hong kong and shen zhen's custom which took forever!! oh ya, elaine made her prom dress there on the first day at a really good price at 罗湖商业城 luo hu shang ye zhong xin or something like that which is very near our hotel(forum hotel). talking about this place, the people of the shops are so scary!!! it is like when you pass by their shops, they will start promoting their stuff in a non-stop fashion. they will go on and on and on and on... so scary!!! another major culture shock!!! lucky it is different in singapore. phew... haha...

friday 25/11; shen zhen:
we went to 世界只窗 shi jie zhi chuang. whoa! that place was awesome man!!!! so cool!!! so magnificent!!! haha... i like their tagline alot... 'give me a day and i will give you the world...' '给我一天, 我给你整个世界...' yup, this was the place where all the wonders in the world are. haha... miniature that is. haha...
the place was huge. we didnt finish walking the entire place but i can say that most of us enjoyed ourselves there. we bought some stuff and took many photos!! haha...

saturday 26/11; shen zhen:
we went to three places on this day. the museum where the adults bought quite a number of stuff, 民俗文化村 min su wen hua cun and 小人国 xiao ren guo where we watched a performance.
then here comes the real shopping!!! haha... we went to the shopping centre near our hotel again. we practically shopped the whole night away. haha... so fun!!!

sunday 27/11; shen zhen:
today, we went to 东门 dong men instead. this was a different place all together. the crowd was younger on the whole and the shop owners were less friendly. not that the people at 罗湖 luo hu were friendly, they were just worse. it is like if you bargain with them and when the price is too low for them to accept, they will just take their goods away from you and not sell to you anymore. they dont even bother negoiating for a right price. but the shopping here was great too. at least for the younger ones in our group. hahaha...

monday 28/11; hong kong:
yes!!! we went disneyland today!!!! i was very excited about it at first!!! it was DISNEYLAND!!! DISNEYLAND!!!! haha... we took their train there and their ez-link card is call octopus card. very interesting right?! you can even purchase stuff using your octopus cards. haha... ok back to disneyland! do you know that they even have their very own disneyland train. with their windows the shape of mickey's head? haha... so cool right!! but................ when i arrived, i was quite disappointed. why? because the place is very small, very much smaller than 世界之窗 shi jie zhi chuang. but oh well, i had my share fair of fun there too. haha... my sis, elaine and i took photos with some princesses, pooh and tigger!!! hahaha... we didnt take any rides cause the queues were toooooooo long. i remembered queueing for an hour plus just to take photo with pooh and tigger. so imagine queueing for the rides. haha... we watched the parade and also the closing ceremony of the day. very nice!!! hahaha... oh ya! i bought 2 mickey mouse bags there!!! i love them alot! especially the smaller sized one. waahahaha... after that, we went to 女人街 nu ren jie to shop! and, i saw one 靓仔 (handsome guy) there!! haha... he was standing in front of me. i wanted to call my sis at first but she was too far away. oh well... haha... then i told her later about it and she was like you can shout out to me. hahahaha... but, we didnt really shop. cause people were tired already so we headed for our hotel instead where my sister and i watch the tv. haha...

tuesday 29/11; hong kong:
we woke up very early in the morning for the city tour. though i wasnt very willing to go at first, i actually found it very educational in the end. haha... because freddy ma, our tour guide told us about the 风水 feng shui of hong kong. i find it very queer and 邪门 xie men. it is like you cannot dont believe it. let me tell you why...
there's this building in hong kong that always has fire accidents. and the boss was very stressed by it. i mean if your building is constantly on fire, who would dare to come right. so this boss went to 请教 (qing jiao) a feng shui master about. the master look at the building and said, "your building looks like the shape of a cigarette and that's why it is so easy to catch fire. but, you can still salvage the situation by building a swimming pool in it. because with water, fire cant survive." and true enough, after building a swimming pool at the top level, there was no more fire. very 邪门 (xie men) right!!!
another even more queer one.
in 1997, china bank building was erected on the 风水地 (feng shui di) of hong kong and this building was like the shape of many knives. after this building was built in 1997, hong kong's economy was immediately affected greatly. because the 'knives' destoryed hong kong's feng shui badly. then opposite of this china bank building was HSBC building. they were very badly affected by it. so they went to consult the master again. he said, "they use knives to attack you right, you counter attack them with canons!" so, on top of the HSBC building there was two canons erected and they were facing directly at the chian bank building. and amazingly, the HSBC and hong kong's economy kinda recovered. it all seems too strange right! and the best part of all was the 李嘉成 li jia cheng's building. his was built right in of this war. and his feng shui was even better. haha... the mater told him to build his slanted 45 degrees. meaning the edges of his building facing the two buildings. why? because knives cant cut edges right? only on flat surfaces. the the canons cant fire at the edges too. so 李嘉成 (li jia cheng) successfully blocked the attacks from two of the buildings. how brilliant! hahaha... it all seem too fake but then again, you cant say you dont believe it.
on this city tour we went to 太平山 tai ping shan, fishing village and one more place but i forgot its name. my family together with uncle's george's family took a boat ride. it was very relaxing throughout the ride. and the auntie driving it was very cute and she chatted with my mother throughout the whole ride. haha...
then in the afternoon, we went shopping again! yay! haha... we went espirit!! and yes, it was so much cheaper there!! my sister bought quite alot of clothes there. i bought only one skirt and one shirt. haha... then in the night, we went to 山顶 the peak, to see the night view of hong kong. i must say whoa!!!!! it was so beautiful!!!!! and very cold. haha...
but it was worth it. the breathtaking view was simply awwwww!!!!! hahaha...

wednesday 30/11; hong kong:
this is our last day. in the morning we went to the avenue of stars. it was not bad. hahaha... at least i got to see the hand prints of different famous artists like andy lau(!!!!), tony leung(!!!!) and more... hahaha... i am happy!!! then we split up, with my family shopping at 花园街 hua yuan jie or aka sports street. hahaha... i think i was like the only one shopping there and i bought one pink nike dunk! nice! hahaha... cui min, are you jealous??? hiak hiak hiak... :p
so that's about what i did on the last day. hmmm... it's sad that my sis didnt get to meet her edison chen as she wished on the street, but there's always the magazine you can rely on for his photo! haha...

on the whole, i got almost what i wanted. i am happy!!!!!! i simply love hong kong!!! ok, shen zhen maybe a little, cause the stuff were cheap but you'll just have to compromise with the quality and design... but that's besides the point. i am sure to go back there one day... hahaha... wait for me hong kong!!!!

*photo blog is on the way, be patient cui min. haha... i know you miss hong kong!*

back!

2005-12-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!!!
it was grrrrreaaaaat!!!
hahaha...
i shall blog later about it when i have uploaded all the photos that i took!!
by the way, the time now is 11:09 pm... something is wrong with my blog's time... haha... adidos!

cip

2005-11-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to woodlands library to do my cip with michelle and en min. it was damn tiring!!!!!!!!!!

let's start from the begining......................

i was supposed to meet michelle at 8.10 in the morning(oh my gosh, this is like way too early for me) at the control station but...... she was late. and the irony is that she told me not to be late and that she thinks that i would be late and the one who is will have to treat the person breakfast. hahaha... and so, i got my free breakfast!! haha... but it was understandable that she was late. she stays at boon keng and it is like sooooooooooooooo far for her. as for me, i've got my father to fetch me there! hahaha...

continuing on, we reported at the library at 10 and started our shift. initially, i was full of vigor and was really happy to see so many children. then as time tick by, the weariness started to kick in. having slept at 3 plus the night before and waking up at 6 plus the next morning, you can imagine how tired i became. i started stonning while the kids were happily playing with the marbles tiredlessly. then i saw a very tall figure walking towards me(i was sitting down) and it was zihao. he came over to causeway point to buy movie tickets that he would be watching with weijie.

time continued to crawl. i was really really tired. then michelle and i started to slack at my station. of course there was no on playing. then when the chong kart(i dont know the spelling exactly) station was free, we went to play it. hahaha... i wasnt really thinking in that game. all that was on my mind was my bed, my comfortable bed. haha...

then finally, at last. it was 9pm. our cip is FINALLY over!!!! yay!!! after 11 hours pf playing the same game over and over again with different kids, i finally get to go home! hahaha... but then though it was tiring, i had fun meeting new people and interacting with kids. they are simply angels to me. hahaha... at one point, i got irritated by a group of kids, but, michelle came to my rescue. haha... she kinda chided them subtly and i think they were afraid of her. thanks mic for the help!!!!!!!! hahaha... kids will forever be kids. childish, playful, full of silly ideas, adorable, lovable....................

class bbq

2005-11-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

ok, today i shall blog about the class barbecue on tuesday. haha...

i met suhaila first and went to yio chu kang together. sue gave me my present. thanks sue!!!!!!!!!! hahaha... i dont have a bath tub, but i do have a pail! :p
ok, so we reached yio chu kang on time but...................... Kenneth was not here till about 6 plus when we were to meet at 5.30. all of us were like pissed at him. and he made me bring my heavy lappy so that he can do his I&R cos there was some problem with his com.
then we finally reached his place, it was party time!!!! yay!!!! we barbecued, ate and took photos! haha... kenneth's sister is sooooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!! hahaha... i simply love children!!!!! and no hui shan, she's mine!!!!!! hahahaha... seline (his sister) is so blessed. she has 2 elder brothers who i can tell love and dote on her alot. how i wish i have an elder brother too........ but i guess it's not possible in this lifetime. maybe the next? hahaha...

more!

2005-11-16T16:34:00.000+08:00

as promised! more photos!! waahahaha...

wei jie and me!

oh my big head...my big face...my big ear!!!!!

group photo!! i wonder when will we meet up again and laugh like nobody's business...

oh ya, today i had a class barbecue at kenneth's place. haha... it was fun man!!!! finally we feel a little class spirit. haha... took some photos also but i will upload some other day... maybe tomorrow...

sylvia's birthday!

2005-11-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

went out today to celebrate sylvia's birthday. happy birthday girl!!!!!!!!!

went to town at first and ended up at jurong point again. haha... took some photos and crap alot (what's new?? with cui min around, the crapping can never cease...) oh ya! i met sylvia's hwee ge. i find the way that they converse with each other very weird. i dont know how to put it in words but it just feels funny... hahaha...

photo time!!

our dearest cui min and me!

me and the birthday girl!!

sin mun and cui min! friends forever!

huh??! i thought they said friends forever? why is sin mun hitting cui min?

me and sin mun!! haha... the both of us look tired...

shall post more photos tomorrow cos somehow, blogger died on me... haha...

me!

2005-11-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

You entered: Ker Hui Ling
There are 10 letters in your name.Those 10 letters total to 60There are 4 vowels and 6 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 6
The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.
The expression or destiny for #6:The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.
The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.
If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.
Your Soul Urge number is: 8
A Soul Urge number of 8 means: With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flare for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.
Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.
The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.
Your Inner Dream number is: 7
An Inner Dream number of 7 means: You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.
take the quiz HEREhttp://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

hmmm, i think it is quite true... especially the characterisitic part. haha... worth the try...

story...

2005-11-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

just to set you thinking and reflecting...

That night, Sue had a quarrel with her mum and without bringing anything with her, she ran out of the house. While she's walking on the street, she discovered that she doesn't have any money on her, not even a cent to make a phone call. As she was walking along the street, she spot a noodle stall, it smell so nice, how she long for a bowl. But, she has no money. After a while, the boss seeing Sue standing in front of his stall for quite a long time, asked, 'Hey Miss, do you want a bowl of noodle?'

'But...but...I didn't bring any money with me...' she answered shyly.

'It's alright, I'll give you a treat.' The boss said, 'Come have a seat, I'll cook you a bowl of noodle.'

Not long after, the owner served Sue with a bowl of noodle and a plate of vegetables. Sue ate a few mouthfuls and she starts to tear.

'What happen, Miss?' the owner asked.

'Nothing, I'm just touched!' Sue said while drying her tears. 'Even a stranger I met on the street would offer to cook a bowl of noodles and treat! But...my own mother, after a quarrel chase me out of the house and asking me not to go back again. You as a complete stranger could show me care and concern while my own mother...she's so cruel.' she said to the owner.

The boss after hearing what Sue had said, replied with a sigh, 'Miss, how can you think that way? Ponder over this, I just cook a bowl of noodles for you and you are so touch. Your mother had been cooking noodles and rice for you since you are young till now, why aren't you grateful to her? And you even quarrel with her?' Sue was stunned upon hearing that.

'Why didn't I think of that? A bowl of noodles from a stranger and I'm so grateful but yet my own mother had been cooking for me for so many years and I'm not even show the least concern about her. And because of a trivial matter, I quarreled with her.'

She finishes her noodle swiftly and braces herself up and march towards the direction of home. As she's walking home, she thought to herself how she wants to tell her mum right now...

'Mum, I'm sorry, I know I'm at fault, please forgive me.' Once she reach the doorstep, she saw her tired and anxious mother, searching everywhere for her; when she spot Sue, the first sentence which came out of her mouth is, 'Sue, come into the house quickly, I've the dinner ready and it'll be cold if you are not eating it now.'

Right at that moment, Sue was unable to hold her tears anymore and she started weeping in front of her mum.

At times, we may be very grateful to others people around us for little gesture they showed us, but to our close ones, especially our parents, it's a lifetime of gratefulness we have to remember. We should never forget what our parent had done for us but often we treat that as a natural process for them to sacrifice for us. However, parent's love and care are the most valuable gift given to us since we were born. They don't expect any repayment from us for raising usbut think about it... Do we treasure this unconditional sacrifice from our parents?

(taken from shir gi's blog)

a series of unexpected events!

2005-11-12T15:46:00.000+08:00

went for the cip briefing at woodlands regional library today. nothing much to say about it but en min and i had fun reliving our childhood. hahaha... we played gasing that is top spinning in malay, hop-scotch and one more but i forgot its name already. haha...

i was supposed to meet xing zhen at jurong point to take my present from her after this thing at woodlands but then, she had a terrible headache. hmmm... i hope she's feeling better now. take care!!

oh ya, today i met a lot of people(actually 3. hahaha...) unexpectedly today. haha... i was very surprised to see cui min on the platform at lakeside station. she said she was going kboxing with alfred and a primary school friend. haha... so she accompained to take the train till choa chu kang. then on my way back from woodlands, i saw shu jing and her boyfriend on the train. but they didnt see me initially. so i called shu jing, but she didnt pick up!! so, i just left it at there. when the train terminated at jurong east, she finally saw me. hahaha... we crapped a little(as usual... hahaha...). i finally got to see the sweet guy of hers. haha... really happy for her!! want to know how sweet he is, go check out her blog. i've linked her. hahaha... okok, back to unexpected meetings. i was waiting for 98 at the lakeside bus stop and messaging sylvia. then when i looked up, i saw rashid! oh my! it's been so long since i last saw him. shock was literally written on my face and i guess he saw it. hahaha... then this shock turn to a smile. hahaha... so unexpected man! hahahaha...
sometimes, the best things come the most unexpectedly...

pw

2005-11-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

yay!!!!!!! OP is over!!!! haha...
but boooooooooooooooooo........
there's still I&R......

thanks!

2005-11-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

so many people wished happy birthday yesterday!!! i feel so blessed. cos i have so many people around me who cares! haha...

i wanna thank these people for remembering my birthday!!!
sylvia, katherine, wei hong, cui min, alfred, yun kay, jia min, sin mun, xin rui, xing zhen, pamela, shu jing, ya yun, dawn, jean, her loong, jun hong, hui xia, eve and amar. also, this 'super' guy from friendster. though i dont know who he or she is i am still grateful. thanks!!! :))))))

you all must be wondering how i spend my birthday. well........ i spend the whole day slacking at home and watching da chang jing (a korean drama series that my auntie borrowed from her friend.)!!!!! hahaha... why did i not go out? haha... the reason is quite lame. haha... i was out almost everyday for the whole of last week and i havent got real time to slack at home for the entire day. so i've decided to do that. haha... call me weird but i really enjoyed just slacking at home and doing nothing. :p

something bizzare and scary happened today. i got this really funny call. initially, the caller id showed the number as 'private' so i thought it was someone i knew who called. but when i answered. it didnt sound like her and the whole mood was very weird. then later, i realised that it was some prank call or something like that. my father 'told me off' a little (actually not really, just like telling me what to do next time.) and i realised i was quite 'gullible'. why do people want to play such stupid and senseless tricks on people? and that caller i guess from her voice isnt young. why are they doing this? too bored?! go to some CC and learn line dancing! why make use of the phone to have 'fun'?!! SENSELESS!!!!!!!!! NO BRAINER!!!!!!!!!

thanks..

2005-11-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

thanks syhair for teaching me french online! hahaha... and no... i'm not going to pay you cos friendship over money right! hahaha...

seven things...

2005-11-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

because alfred wanted to see this and cos i am bored... hahaha...

seven things that will scare me:
flying cockraoches!!! (yucks! there was one time when a huge one flew to my face!!!!! i screamed like crazy!!!!!!!)
beetles!
big flying ants! (my house will be invaded by it when its going to rain! eeeeuuuuu...)
moths!
crickets!
grasshoppers! (actually all insects! they are the most horrible thing on planet earth!!!!!!!! why must they exist?!!!!)
dogs! (not puppies though... cos they are harmless as they dont bark and bite and chase...)

seven most important things in my room:
my lappy
my monitor (cos the screen of my lappy is faulty, so i connected it to the monitor... haha)
my tv
my cds (but most importantly, my ENERGY ones... hahaha...)
my bed
my handphone charger
my mirror

seven random facts abt me:
i dislike long hair because i am toooooo lazy to tie it up every morning before school...
i am very crappy when i am tired
my jokes are lousy to people like yun kay, xing yao and alfred...
i like cookies and cream flavoured ice cream (yummy!!!!!)
i dislike 5566
i like sports and sporty people
i like the number 7

seven things i can do:
cook (i mean it... i can REALLY cook... hahaha...)
bake (i mean it too... not all girls are kitchen disasters in the world today... haha...)
sing (i suppose... hahaha...)
play the piano
play the recorder (hahaha... who cant???)
row!!!!
type fast??

seven things i can't do:
geography (lucky i am done with it! hah!)
social studies (same for this too!)
catch insects
play softball
online gaming
speak russian??? (hahaha...)
bowl

seven celeb crushes:
ENERGY!!! (especially kun da!!! oh my... so handsome!!!)
xiao zhu!!! (so cute and humorous!!!)
harrison ford (charming...)
antonio banderas (nice eyes!!! awww... zorro...)
hugh jackman (great body!!!)
he jun xiang (handsome!)
halu san (takuya kimura in Pride... only him as that character... hahaha...)

seven ppl i'd love to see doing this:
cui min
sin mun
sylvia
xing zhen
shu jing
marjorie
bernice (my sister! haha...)

most relax cip

2005-11-05T17:05:00.000+08:00

today was the slackest cip that i've been to ever! hahaha... i was basically 'wasting' my time doing nothing conducive there. haha... initially, the 5 of us, me, yun kay, yin may, kuan yee and piak loo were to be the stage hands, helping with the presentation. but in the end, only one person was needed and a guy volunteer from NUS took up this job. so we had nothing to do. and in the end, we were in the hotel room chilling. hahaha... we were actually so bored that we helped to pack their messy room. and this task was completed in like what, 5 minutes? haha... so we settled to watch tv. after some time, hui yi, the person in charge of us came and called us for 'work'. yes! finally! something to do. haha... we were told to do ushering at the lobby. but when we were there, we realised that we had nothing to do also. most of the guests knew where to go. so, 'papasan'(hahaha...) brought us to b1 to help usher the guests into the ballroom. but....... there was more than enough people to do it. so we were stonning there too. haha... and ya! the shirt that we were given made us looked like we were from some maid agency. haha... white shirt with blue collar. haha... and joyce was stucked in the toilet of the room because the lock died on us(but she didnt lock it?!?!?!?!). haha... she was actually quite calm as she could still call alfred and tell him, "alfred, i think i am stucked in the toilet..." hahaha... what an interesting day i had... haha...

lameness...

2005-11-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

-=warning: long long entry... hahaha...=-

today was a fun day!! hahaha... went out with xing zhen, ling xiang, her loong, jacob and wei zhong. hahaha... haven done so much lame things in a day. haha...

this was how we spent our hari raya holiday:
in the morning, i met up with xing zhen, ling xiang and jacob and went kboxing at je! hahaha... it was great! hahaha... sang alot of songs and had lots of fun!
then after that in the afternoon. her loong and wei zhong came and we headed to town after MUCH deliberation. haha... actually the plan was to go to town to watch tom yum goong. but xing zhen and i werent willing. so there was this 'argument' between us and jacob at plaza singapura's gv. moreover the seats left for tom yum goong were really bad. then after MUCH MUCH deliberation again(we were actually at the ticketing counter when we suddenly changed our mind again) we headed to cineleisure to see if there's skyhigh or another show that we can compromise on.
so, we walked all the way again from ps to cine. oh ya, we walked from far east plaza all the way to ps to try to watch movie before that already. so you can imagine how tired we were by then.
so ok, when we reached cine, we realised that there isnt any nice show to watch too. then we stared at the screen blankly for quite some time. and after MUCH MUCH MUCH deliberation again, we decided we will not watch movie instead we will go and have dinner.
but the question is where. this led us to FURTHER deliberation again. seoul garden? yuki yaki? cafe cartel? then in the end, after wasting much time, we decided on yuki yaki. hahaha...
actually this day was quite wasted by all our indecisiveness. but, i still had fun... haha...
and so, the story continues...
when we were at yuki yaki, initially it was ok cos we were all busy eating and cooking. then when we had our stomach filled or something like that, things got funny and lame. hahaha...
her loong started it by asking us, "do you all know how to play black magic?" and i know! so we started with this game and lasted for quite sometime cos xing zhen and ling xiang didnt get the game. haha... i can say we all had fun bluffing them. haha...
then we change our game to something else, but as lame. haha... i dont know what is the game called but i had fun looking out for patterns and deciphering the game and looking at blur looks of people who cant. hahaha... so funny!!!! hahaha...
we played a total of 4 lame games during dinner. i had lots of laugh from all the lameness. haha... 2/1 is still afterall, the lamest class. hahaha...
our dinner actually lasted from 5 plus to 9 plus. but half the time we were being crappy. hahaha...
ok, when we finally left the place, we continued with our time wasting-ness. we were thinking of ways we can go home. and after MUCH thought(again) we decided to take 105 from far east plaza again. so, we started with our walking once more. hahaha... we almost headed the wrong way but luckily her loong had a better sense of direction than us(actually xing zhen and i) and led us to the correct path. hahaha...
on the bus, we were once again deciding how we would go home. xing zhen had the choice of taking 154 then 243 or 99. so, after MUCH MUCH deliberation (what's new?!), she decided on the latter. then i had the choice of 154 or 98. somehow, xing zhen made the decision for me and i had to take 98 which was a longer journey. hahaha... but luckily her loong and wei zhong accompanied me all the way to my house cos i was complaining beforehand to xing zhen that it was a very very long journey. so sweet of them right? hahaha... but actually i'm feeling a little guilty. cos i can tell that wei zhong was really tired already. as for her loong, because he wanted to borrow my volleyball, so i didnt feel that guilty towards him. hahaha... oh ya, and ling xiang accompanied xing zhen and jacob went off alone to take the mrt.
on 98, our lameness continued with her loong and i telling even more lame jokes. haha... you just cant stop 2/1 people from being crappy and lame. hahaha... but this is also what makes the class enjoyable!

i simply love my 2/1 friends!!!! hahaha... my lame kakis!

hahaha... so this marks the end of today's entry. hahaha... really really long!!!!!! the lonest i have blog. haha...

the legend of zorro...

2005-11-03T16:37:00.000+08:00

i watched the legend of zorro today with pamela at jurong point. i must say that the show is damn nice!!! people, please go watch it!!! not to be missed!!!

oh my, antonio is sooooooooo hot!!!!!!!!!! looking at him fighting with his sword and whipping with his whip(??) simply melted me... ahhhhhh... and those eyes of him is just soooo mesmerizing!!! ahhhh... hahaha... catherine was very pretty also. haha... but half the time i was looking at ZORRO!!! haha... and ya, the chemistry between the lead actor and actress was great!!! it goes to show how deep their love was for each other. haha... and there's their son too, wakim(???). he's a cute little boy! hahaha... like they say, like father, like son. wakim is just like another mini zorro. hahaha... too smart for his age... hahaha... i like the last part of the movie, "father, can you please read faster, the people need ZORRO..." hahaha... nice!!!

i'm going to sleep today with a big wide grin stuck on my face. haha... hopefully i'll dream of zorro! hahaha...

ah ya! watching this show made me even more determined to learn spanish!!!! i am so going to do it! haha... after A level's that is... hahaha... adios senor, senora!

2005-10-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

my birthday is coming soon!!! 6 more days... hahaha...

birthday list for this year:
xiao zhu's new cd, chui mian show
backstreetboys cd
new pencil box
new bag
new jacket...............................................................

hahaha...

oh ya, went to sentosa on friday with my cca. had a hell of a time! hahaha... now i am tanned again! yay! but i wonder how long it will last...:p

thursday...

2005-10-28T14:03:00.000+08:00

today's so exciting though i had to wake up early in the morning to go to school just for ex co meeting at 9. haha... cos i did something interesting today. haha... sneaking out before 12.45 at some place... so exciting!!! haha... so fun! hahaha...
it's the first and the last at SA@malanroad. haha... :)))))

then after that me, yun kay and alfred accompanied pee to sim lim to look for his psp game. quite sad for him cos all the shops we went all either said sold out or have not arrived. haha... but he still managed to find one and got it at 83... but the earliest he can get is saturday. yup... we were walking non-stop for the whole day and now my legs are tired. :(((((

ya, then after that i went to meet wei jie at jp together with yun kay. the choir ex co'03 were supposed to have dinner together. but sylvia cant make it in the end, sin mun and cui min had to do pw and so didnt come too. so it was the 3 of us. i think i'm super crappy and i believe the other 2 think likewise too. haha... i'm crappy when i'm tired... haha... but i had fun entertaining them and myself! hahaha... crappy hui ling... :ppppp

story...

2005-10-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

here's somthing i saw at friendster that caught my eye... if only people were to stop blaming each other for their mistakes...

Message:
A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the gem of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for office so he asked his wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. His wife, preoccupied in the kitchen totally forgot the matter. The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle fascinated by its color and drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant foradults in small dosages. When the child collapsed the mother hurried him to the hospital.
He died.
The mother was stunned. She was terrified how she was going to face her husband.When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just five words.

The husband just said "I am with you Darling". The husband's totally unexpected reaction is a proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he had taken time to keep the bottle away, this would not have happened. No one is to be blamed. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

MORAL OF THE STORY
This story is really worth reading. Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. By this way we miss out some warmth in human relationship...

saddness...

2005-10-25T15:04:00.000+08:00

i guess i am not that sad anymore...
time has allowed me to kinda get over it...
though i am still affected by it somehow, it's minimal...
i dont want to think of it anymore...
jia you alfred, you can do it too!

updating

2005-10-22T13:54:00.000+08:00

Yay! Good news! My bio is now a D and not an E! Yep, I’ve added 2.5 marks so I think I went up one grade. :)

Sports club organized our very first event for the entire college that is street soccer. I could say that it was a success. I was there to help out as a ‘first aider’. Well, I’m not really trained in first aid and my knowledge of it comes from books I’ve read beforehand and ‘lessons’ taught by some of my friends. Though I was not a trained personnel, I was still able to treat a fractured wrist (ya, ouch!). I also learnt some other first aid knowledge when the real first aider helped to treat a gash on Eugene’s face and a guy’s knee. Hmmm, this made me realized that I REALLY needed to be officially trained. Fortunately, Ms Sng suggested that all of the sports club members undergo some basic first aid course taught by Alfred, Xing Yao and Jian Yong as the are real thing. Hahaha…
Okok, back to the soccer thing. The winner was Joshua’s team; 0-0 then 3-2 (I think if I remembered correctly). The top scorer was this guy from hockey. He scored 7 goals in 7 matches. Meaning 1 goal per match… wah… that’s a lot… (nodding my head… hahahaha…)

Oh ya!!!! Something is sooooooooooo wrong with my explorer. It doesn’t allow me to type anything!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t log into friendster because I can’t type in my email and password. I can’t tag because I can’t type. I cannot serve the net because I can’t change the url. Anyone knows what’s wrong???!!! :(
In desperate need of help…

promos...

2005-10-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

i got back my promos results. i think i did ok... at least i met my target of at least 40 rank points overall. actually, i was aiming for the very least Ds for all subjects but i've got C C E O; C for chem and math, E for bio and O for physics. i cant say it was very good but at least i improved since common test. and if i can keep this up, i might be able to get my As(dreaming and hoping away........... haahahaha...)

actually, it was quite a depressing day for some of my friends. they didnt do as well as they expected and faced the probability of being retained. it wasnt because they didnt studied. i guessed something went wrong with their studying method. hmmm... hopefully they would be promoted.

october 14, a happy and sad day...........................................

bad day!

2005-10-13T13:31:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhhhh... pw is so irritating!!!!! i just wish to get over and done with it ASAP!!!

something is wrong with my phone today. there is no line!!! i cant call out, cant sms, can receive calls, cant receive sms!!!! what is wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a horrible day...

rowing!

2005-10-10T14:09:00.000+08:00

rowing yesterday was worth it! haha... why? because xing yao capsized for real.. FINALLY! haha... okok, i shall not gloat over his misfortune. it was actually quite an unfortunate thing for him. he was racing against bryan then for some reason he just capsized. me and jia min saw half the process. i think it was because his oars came off the gate and that is what caused the 'tragedy'. haha... then all of us were trying to 'save' him. he try swimming back with the boat, but couldnt. so in the end ren ling's boat took his oars back and he held on to our boat and we row him back. actually it was me who did the rowing. it was really really really tough. it needed much much much much more strength than usual. but it's ok! at least i got to work out after so long. hahaha... one of my objectives for rowing yesterday. hahaha...

and for today, i went to watch Into The Blue with my mom. not a bad movie i must say. i like the storyline. acient treasure myth, plane wreck, love and more... it's a show worth watching. haha...

summarized...

2005-10-09T14:31:00.000+08:00

i am back.
post promos.
deprived of sleep.
rowing is fun!
shall blog tmr abt it.
that's all.
short n sweet.

me?

2005-08-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

Your Beauty liesin Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger thanyou are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive andsheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply yourreputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities oflife. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you area bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You mightseem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deemyou "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and aregoing to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some ThingsThat Represent You:

Element:Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song:Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone:Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet:Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color: Silver

Quote: "Astranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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happy birthday

2005-08-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

happy birthday Singapore!!!!

big mistake

2005-08-08T13:08:00.000+08:00

hahahaha... the meeting with the principal was nothing. it was in fact very embarassing for me. haha... you see after morning assembly, as in the one afterwhich we sang the national athem and all, i went to see the principal immediately. so i walked up to her and asked, "mrs lim, did you ask to see me?" then she was like, "huh? i didnt." and this confusion went on and on and i had to ask melody to come along with me to clarify some stuff. then in the end, my ct, ms yeo helped me solved the whole mystery by asking mr soh about the whole thing. it turned out that WE as in a bunch of us were supposed to meet her. she was giving us a motivation talk on losing some kilos off our body as we were really close to our ideal weight. i thought it was nice of the school to do that. haha... so she came into the ideas room and when she saw me she was saying, "now you know why..." then my pe teacher was "starring" at me and wanted to "punch" me. hahaha... it was sooooooo embarassing that i made such a mistake. haha... so yup, that's the answer to the mystery from thursday. :)

huh?!

2005-08-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

back from LTC (which is like long ago...) haha... well, it was ok. a different kind of training camp for me. i think i got to know everyone else better. hmmm, which i thought was a good thing. haha... i cant really remember much about LTC already. i've been busy this week with tests and my memory is getting really bad. i think as i grow older i become more forgetful. o_O

oh ya!!! i am doing archery tomorrow!!!! so excited now!!! haha... 3 hours of archery lesson!!! cool!!!

but sh*t... i've got to meet the principal tomorrow. the reason? unknown. it was like i got a message from the class rep during math tutorial saying, "huiling, mr ben soh tells you to meet the principal tomorrow after morning assembly." after reading it i was like HUH?! what's the matter?! i didnt do anything wrong.... i believe. so i was asking samantha for the reason. if you're wondering why her, because mr ben soh told her that. continuing on, she said that the she's unsure too but.... the principal will be seeing a bunch of us, not only me. well, that's more consoling to hear isnt it? i guess it should be regarding results. but the incongruity is that mr soh is my PE teacher. if it was to be about results, shouldnt my CT be the one to inform me about it? hmmm... questionable... i guess there'll be more updates tomorrow night about this issue. hopefully it is just what i think it would be.

that's all so far, adidos...

2005-07-29T13:34:00.000+08:00

LTC is tomorrow...
busy making Ms Sng's birthday card now...
damn tired...
i need sleep...
but i haven pack my bag!!!!!!!!!!
i am so DONE...

many many things!!!

2005-07-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally i am blogging again!!!! my laptop was down for a couple of days and the internet connection for my computer is not working!!!! it was damn frustrating during that period of time!!!!

so many things happened!!! haha... so firstly, i got into Sports Club ex co!!!!! hahaha... yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! triple cheers!!!!!!!!!! :)))) the post i hold is the welfare head. hehehe... i am happy with it!!! hehehe... ya yun is my sub comm head (also like my assistance) and zi hao is my mentor. hahaha... really glad these were the two person. haha... ya yun!!!! we are working together again!!!! hahahaha...

okok, next, i went for rapture on friday at kallang theatre. i was pretty sad at first because i got no real friends to go with. so i tag along with alfred and bryan. but when i reach that place, i saw joanna and li jun!!!!!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!! miss them loads!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what's more is that daniel and prash is also there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really really miss the s52(first intake) peeps alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how i wish we would gather some day again soon! hahaha... s52(first intake) rocks!!!!!!!! love them like crazy!!!!!!!
oh ya, rapature. it is a dance concert put up by our very dance society. oh man!!!! i must say, it was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! many many thumbs up!!!!! hahahaha... i will go again next year!!!!!!!!!! damn nice!!!!! hahaha...

then... ya! i just came back from a chalet. hahaha... i stayed up the entire night with elaine and kenneth. hahaha... talking crap really really does make time goes faster. haha... before we knew it, it was morning already. hahaha... enjoyed staying up woth them. haha... actually our decision to stay over was impromtu. hahaha... very gung-ho right! hahaha...

hmmmm.... any more things that i missed out??? i guess not... hahaha... so that's all... adios! :))))))))

no rowing... :(

2005-07-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

sob... :'( there is no rowing for me today. all because of the bad weather... sigh... nevermind, we shall go next saturday! hahaha... cant wait!!!

oh ya! i want to introduce a show to you guys. it is 'remember the titians'. very nice! very meaningful! i watched it during my Saints Primero and was very inspired by it. it is showing tonight, channel 5 at 10.30 pm, which is not long from now! go watch it! haha...

rowing!

2005-07-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!! i'm going rowing tomorrow!!! finally!!! woohooo!!!

so much to say...

2005-07-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

there so much to say!!

firstly, i got back my results. well, it wasnt really good. i got a C for chem, E for math, O for bio, F for physics, b4 for chinese and c6 for gp. i dont wish to talk about it anymore. at least i got my 30 points. i will work harder the next time round. i must.

today is also the day i went for Sports Club ex co interview. oh my! i was so nervous towards the end of today. luckily i had the help from my wonderful friends like alfred, kenneth, shi ying, suhaila and katherine. their opinions and views on what i should do and how i can improve my speech and presentation were greatly valued. i owe you guys one! thanks a million! i'll be there if you guys ever need me too! :D well as for the interview, i think i did ok. though there were some glitches. like when i went into the room, my thumb drive dropped on the floor. then when i was about to leave, i just pluck out the thumb drive from the lap top without closing my presentation. then there was some error, so i had to rectify it. i walk towards my right instead of left and got caught by the wire. ahhhh... so embarassing!!! ya... besides these, i think generally i did ok. hopefully i will be in the ex co. haha... i simply LOVE Sports Club!!!!

changes!!

2005-07-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

yay!!! cut my hair today!! finally!! haha... been wanting to do so for quite some time. no more messy and out of shape hair! wahahaha...

i went to toyota showroom today around queenstown with my family. yep, my mother is changing our mazda 323 to a toyota corolla altis. haha... the new car is more spacious and easier to get in(if you know what i mean). haha... cant wait for it to come! haha...

also, i change my blogskin!!(if you already didnt know...) haha... i like this one alot. guess i wont be changing it for a long long time... haha...
that's all! adios!

test

2005-07-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Take this test at http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

oh my... quite true... but also some that are not... so guys, this is who i am...

sigh... sigh... sigh...

2005-07-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

school started officially already. everything is a mundane routine all over again... sigh...

i got back my chinese paper today. 60/100 for paper 2 and 7/10 for listening comprehension. it is not that good i think. i used to get like 70+ 80 for paper 2 for o levels and now i got only 60. my friend told me that it is ok. because there is a big discrepancy between o levels chinese and a levels chinese. oh well... maybe that's really the case. sigh...

ahhh... tomorrow is my chinese a levels oral!!! yet i havent prepare for it! how? how? how? should i just go there tomorrow and crap my way through hoping to get a distinction? seems impossible man... maybe i'll go read some newspaper articles later. sigh...

test

2005-07-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

Test... take it at http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. You are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.
You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.
You are a dreamer and you seek perfection in any relationship that you may establish. Some of your ideas and standards are over the top so it may be a good idea to review your perception of life and accept people for what they are - not for what you would like them to be.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalize but you need to realize a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

hmmm... there's some truth in it... i dont know what to say...

camp!

2005-07-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

haha... went back to choir camp today again... today was even more fun! hahaha... cause of guo jin... haha... KIA KIA!!! hahaha... the story goes...

i told him i find KIA KIA very cute!!! ok, so KIA KIA is luo zhi xiang, xiao zhu!! hahaha... then he started acting like him! oh man!!! so alike!!!! hahahaha... then he got me and sylvia laughing so hard!!! hahahahahahahaha... that's not all! there is this group that had some stuff with us and they need to claim it back. at first, we play hai dai quan with them but all of us lost, so the group got back one of their things. after that we started talking about KIA KIA... hahaha... so i suggested them mimicking him like the way guo jin does it. hahaha... so all of them learnt how to do so and started 'performing' for us. damn funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha... it really got us roaring with laughter!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha...

though overall the camp was fun, but there was some shocking part too. one of the campers collasped during area cleaning. oh man... it was so scary at that time. she had difficulty breathing and her body was all cramped up. her fingers, feet, mouth, neck... everything. all of us were shocked and were all thinking of the worst case senario. but luckily, things werent that bad. when the ambulance and paramedics came, they told us that she was just hyper ventilating, nothing really serious. so that was when the rock in my heart was gone. phew... also, when i was looking at the paramedics attend to her, i felt really inspired. it is such a great feeling to know that you can actually save a person's life. i was even more sure that i want to be a doctor(paediatrician). yes. i will study harder! jia you hui ling!!!

yeah!!!!

2005-07-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha... yup!!! common test is finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooooohooooooooooo!!!!! hahahaha... so happy now!!!! simply overjoyed!!!!!!! i am finally back to blogging again!!!! hahahaha... now i am considering whether to change my blog skin... i know this move will bring disappointment to sylvia... hahaha... cause she cant see ENERGY anymore... wahahaha... so i shall consider this seriously...

firstly, guesses for common test grades... hmmm... chem, maybe a B... bio, confirm a F but if i am lucky, O... phys, C or B... math (screw up big time!!!!) C and if i an lucky B... let's see how accurate my predictions are... hahahaha...

secondly, choir peeps rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha... had so sooooooo much fun with them today during dinner at pizza hut... its been ages since we sat there, eating and talking with each other... hahahahahaha... the feeling is all back again!!!!!!! hahaha... the good old days... wahahahaha...

choir ex co 03 rocks my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love...

2005-06-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

Message: This is a true story that happened inJapan.

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tore open the wall. Japanese houses normally havea hollow space between the wooden walls. When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside was hammered into one of its feet. He saw this, felt pity, and at the same time he was curious. When he checked the nail, turns out, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built. What happened? The lizard had survived in such a position for 10 years! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling. Then he wondered how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step--since its foot was nailed! So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what it had been doing, and what and how it had been eating. Later, not knowing from where it came, appeared another lizard, with food in its mouth. Ahh! He was stunned and at the same time, touched deeply. Another lizard had been feeding the stuck one for the past 10 years...

Such love, such a beautiful love! Such love happened with this tiny creature... What can love do? It can do wonders! Love can perform miracles! Just think about it; one lizard had been feeding the other one untiringly for 10 long years, without giving up hope on its partner. If a small creature like a lizard can love like this... just imagine how we can love if we really try?

life sucks!!!!!!!

2005-06-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

life sucks when all you do every day is study Study STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like i have no life anymore... sigh... my common test starts when the june holidays are over. so i'm like left with only 1 week and few more days. and guess what? i have only completed revising for my c math and into the 3rd chapter of my chemistry. i am still left with physics and biology and there's only like less than 2 weeks for 3 core subjects?!?!?!?! who am i kidding??? actually, i am preparing to fail one of my subjects. i think it's going to be biology. there's like soooooooooooo much to study in bio and soooooooooooo little time!!! i guess i'll just give up on bio temporarily. sighhh........... indeed a student's pathetic life...

quiz!!!

2005-06-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla

is it true??? i dont really think so... hmmm... not that accurate...

i love you...

2005-06-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

A sad sad story...

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.
"I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U
I Love U..."

always tell the guy or girl that you love him or her...
but, who really does that? everyone is so shy to confess their love... if only everyone is bold enough...
such a sad story...

rowing!!!

2005-06-05T16:12:00.000+08:00

i'm so proud of ourselves!!!! the rowers did well!! hehehe... it was truly a priceless experience gained. i wouldnt exchange it for anything else! haha...

ok, so this is how it goes. on friday we had three events. women's single skculls heats, men's single skculls heats and women's double skcull's heats. almost all the rowers were involved; all except small Eugene. i think maybe it was because it was the first time we row continuously for 4 km, everyone was worn-out after it. it was still good effort though we didnt get into the finals straight. hahaha... all of us were like, "see you in rapecharge!!" hahaha... rapecharge is something like a second change to get into the finals. actually i think for byran it was quite wasted. he is such a good rower but things just didnt go right for him. his shirt was stuck halfway and worse still he had a cramp in his thigh. and so he capsized and was disqualified. i think he's very disappointed. but i think it is ok. cause it is the process that matters. we all know that he is a good rower.

then today, we had men's single skculls rapecharge, women's single skculls rapecharge, women's double skculls rapecharge, women's single skculls finals, men's single skculls finals and women's double skculls finals. the guys and girls didnt get into the finals. but i think they all performed better than yesterday. then for the women's doubles, we already had one team in the finals already. hahaha... kuan yee and piak loo. then the top two from rapeharge gets into the finals too. so it was malaysia, ren ling and yun kay then me and jia min. intially jia min and i were just rowing for the fun of it. we didnt expect anything. so when we got into the finals, we were really overjoyed!! hahaha... and better still, our timing improved by 1 mintue and 19 seconds. haha... though it might seemed very little but it makes alot of difference already, that 1 mintue. so i'm really proud of ourselves. hehe... and for the finals, kuan yee and piak loo got 5th and us 6th. though it wasnt the top few seats, i think we surpassed ourselves in many ways already. we are already winners! hahaha...

tomorrow we only have one event that is men's double skculls finals. eugene and byran are competing. may the force be with them!!! hehehe... mind over body... mind over body... though rowing gives us bad blisters on our hands but still, mind over body... all the best guys!!!

hmmm... actually we are racing against national rowers. i mean how can us, people who learn and train for only about 1 month compete with national rowers who trained for a much longer time than us? it is actually very good that we can even compete in the race alongside national rowers from around the world. good effort guys!!! good effort!! i wont care if some people at the race(i wont specifically name) would comment this, "wah, this group of people very slow." they just dont understand. so whatever... as long as we know it ourselves, it is ok! hahaha... so that's all!! ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!

Camp!!!

2005-06-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

ok! about the camp... hmmm... it is the best man! we really did lots of things. on the first day, we had telematch where it is playing volleyball, captain's ball using cabbage as the ball, floorball and handball continuously. my group won 3 lost 1 draw 2. it was quite a good score and we were the champion for the telematch!!! yay!! then after that we had lunch. oh man! it was the best lunch i ever had during a camp. it was quite good food! hahaha... compared to the camp i been to last time, the fare was really superb! hahaha... and ya, after that, we had dragon boating!!!!! whoa!! it is even more fun!!!
you see, in dragon boating right, you cant really capsized. so the coach was like telling us to get up from our seats and sit on the sides of the boat instead. initially everyone was quite hesitant about sitting there. but after some persuasion everyone sat there. then the coach started to rock the boat sideways. it was so scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for me at least, the guys were obviously enjoying it. they were even rocking it harder so that their butts could be wet. though scary but quite fun. hahaha... quite contradicting right? hahaha...
then after that, in the night we watched a movie in LT3. the return of the titains. it is so nice!!! a very meaningful show. it is like reflecting the racist problem in America through football. i think it is a show worth watching. many thanks to ms sng for selecting such a great show!

then the second day we had Saints Primero race. it is so cool and even much more fun!!! hahaha... we get to go to many places. like the first stop was Jurong East Sports Complex where we have to perform 3 tasks. we must complete the lazy river thingy, the slides and the wave pool too. it is so fun! hahaha... then after that, we went to kranji war memorial. it is a very peaceful place to be. very serene very nice. but quite saddening too when you look at the grave. those soldiers that died were as young as 21. there were even civillians that were as young as 3. very sad right? then there were even some graves that were nameless, meaning the body was never identified. there were even some whose grave was lost. that is there was an identity but the body was never found. very sad right? oops, ny second time saying it. and ya!!! when we were walking out towards the bus stop, we saw Dos there and the bus that we can take 961 was arriving. all of us ran like crazy for it. but we only got to the bus stop to see the members of Dos boarding it and the doors closed on us and drove away. that was the saddest man!!! so close yet so far!!!!! but nevermind. after that, we still got to bukit timah hill with Tres on the same bus with us. our task there was to climb right up to the top and back down. it was a very tiring task. the slope was so steep!!! the worst is, my old injury at my knee acted up again, making the climb up even more arduous. but my team mates were so supportive of me. they encouraged me on and even help me take my bag. thanks guys!!! i love you all! then we had lunch and after that we headed to Takashimaya for our next task. we had to search for 5 different products. it was a relatively simple task. so we completed in no time. then after that we were supposed to make our way to Benjamin Sheares bridge. oh man! we really wasted alot of time on it. we were walking in the wrong direction!!! but eventually we got there. then after that we need to get to the Japanese War Memorial, Supreme Court, Old Parliment House, Victoria Concert Hall and finally some Soon Ching place in Chinatown. and all of this was done on both legs. we walked all the way!!!!!!! it is so damn far!!! and all thanks to marvin and nathaniel. if it wasnt for them, we would have been lost. hahahaha... then when we arrived at chinatown the next task was 食字路口, which is some food name joining game. it was so fun!!! hahaha... it was then that we saw Dos for the second time. when we saw them, they were already leaving for school already. meaning the completed the race. but it is ok. we caught up alot already. we were actually the last team to arrive at Jurong East Sports Complex but we managed to come in 2nd for the race!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!! then after that right, we had a barbercue!!!! hahahaha... so cool right?! we actually had a barbercue during camp. hahaha...
then after that, we had a surprised birthday celebration for Eugene. we stood together, forming a heart shape and waited for him to come. it was a very touching scene. if i were him, i will sure to cry. hahaha... he told me that he did tear. when we were heading back to the cafe he cried. hahaha...

the third day. hmmm, nothing much actually. oh ya! the pt! hahaha... we were like running around the track in two different groups in opposite directions. and we claped each other hands when we passed each other. then we ran passed the interact people and did our claps. then kuna yee heard one of them saying, "i should have joined Sports Club..." hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! our cca is sooooooooo cool man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never once regret it!! hahahaha...

actually right, i dont wish to leave the camp. it is like we bonded together very well and we really had lots of fun. i actually feel sad to break the camp. but it is just life right? all good things will eventually come to an end. ya... so... i'll just keep looking forward to life!!

tomorrow is my competition!!! but i am not nervous. it think i'll just treat it as an experience gained. just like what mei ling said at the end of the camp. winning is one thing, but the effort we put in is everything. yup!!! i agree totally!! so that's all! ciao!

SAINTS PRIMERO!!!!

2005-06-02T02:38:00.000+08:00

i am back!!!!!!! hahahahaha...... oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SAINTS PRIMERO ROCKS!!!!!!!!!! i love it!!!!! it is so much fun and so exciting!!!! i dont mind it being a 5 day thing or even longer!!! hahahaha... really! i mean it! in the short 3 days, we really did quite alot of things. i am so proud of everyone! SAINTS SPORTS CLUB really rules my life man!! one thing i really have to say, the seniors and teachers really did a fantastic job. i salute them!! they had indeed earn my utmost respect.
hmmm... i shall blog tomorrow about the camp. quite tired now and i still have rowing training tomorrow at seletar. so ciao!!

saints primero!!!

2005-05-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

camp is tomorrow!!! yet i have not pack my bag!!! it will be a 3 days 2 night residential camp in school. the name of the camp is Saints Primero, which means saints first in spanish. my group is cuatro, which means four in spanish. hahahahaha... i am so gonna love this camp!!! why? cause its theme is SPANISH!!!! wahahahaha... besides this, i think it would be fun as there will be dragon boating and saints primero, something like amazing race only that we will be running about in singapore. hahaha... looking forward to it. oh ya, we will be breaking camp on wednesday, at about 11+ 12? then i have rowing at 3+ and it is at seletar reservoir!!! so far!!!!! imagine, carrying my big bag from camp all the way there... oh my... but it will be the last training and i think we will have a "mini race" on our own, to test out. cause seletar will be the place we are racing at. i hope i still have the physical strength to carry on. oh well, that's all for today, i need to pack my bag!!!!!!!!!!!! ciao!!

i miss you...

2005-05-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him, missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u were out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future...
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did notreturn your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in thefeeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she isfeeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoia.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait ...

confused...

2005-05-28T15:06:00.000+08:00

should i or should i not? i am so confused. so many things running through my mind now. i feel like i can explode any moment. someone please help me.......

hmmm...

2005-05-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

yea!!! the holidays are coming!!!! but....................... it means i have to start studying for the common test. actually right, i dont think it should be called a test. it is more like exams. sigh... but at least i can catch up with my sleep. the dark circles under my eyes are getting from bad to worse. jc life is really so hectic... hopefully i can get pass this two years unscathed.

oh ya! my competition is next friday, saturday and sunday!!! hahaha... we will be competing with some hong kongers. i heard that they are novices too. hehehehe... hope we win it for SA!!!! jia you!!!

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2005-05-25T10:15:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh... incomplete post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no mood to type already...........

smiler'05 part 2

2005-05-24T08:30:00.000+08:00

ok, where did i stop... hmmm... oh ya... i think i forget to mention something really funny. during the scolding in the hall, the one after the PA, the sec 1s were punished and told to be in pumping position right? ya, there is this one girl who fall out. her reason being her hand hurts. so lia took her to one side. the girl was crying at that time. after a while, i went to check on her with yun kay beside me. she stop crying already. i looked at her and told yun kay, "i think she is afraid of me." then yun kay just nodded her head. so i ask the girl, "are you afraid of me?" you know what happened? she started crying again!!! i looked at yun kay and the both of us started laughing together. so funny right? the very first time i "scared" someone to tears. hahaha... then i told the other instructors. they too laughed. hahaha... damn funny!!! hahahahahaha... was i really that scary till two horns grew out of my head??????

ok, back to the story. in the last few hours of the camp, it was the finale. some parents came to watch it too. the finale was actually a slide show of pictures and video of the time spent in camp and some heartfelt speeches made by the GIs. it was fun looking at the video and pictures but it wasnt really emotional for me. i think it might be because there wasnt really much of my part in the video as my station games was cancelled. so i didnt really felt anything. but i have to say, on the whole, the ending was a blast. after mr nur's closing speech, some of the instructors got the AVA people to play the song 'accidently in love'(the song for the mass dance) and they started dancing to it. and the 'they' mean everyone, campers included. hahaha... i think the campers love the mass dance the most. so, that's all for the camp. here comes the packing up and cleaning up part for us.

i was in the cookery room helping to clear out things. i helped to take the bags out and arranged things a little. then i was outside, le

smiler'05

2005-05-23T00:13:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! finally i can blog agian!!! hahaha... i can finally access websites easily again! hahahaha...

ok... i realized i havent been blogging since like last week or so. hmmm, was really very busy. you see... on tuesday, i got a phys test which means that i have to study on mon. then wednesday i have rowing, thursday i have yet another test, chemistry, friday i got my cca(but was cancelled due to somethings which i wasnt sure of) and smiler camp'05, saturday i got rowing and smiler camp'05 and some SGH thingy(but i didnt go, clashed with my rowing) and sunday, i got big walk(didnt go too because i was simply too tired). very very very busy right? but it is ok now. i finally get to sleep!!! yay!!!!! hahaha... okok, let me start on my smiler camp'05...

the camp was from friday to saturday. i reached my secondary school at about 10 plus after successfully getting a green slip from my ct which she initially didnt want to as she felt that my reason was weak and invalid.but nevermind, i still got it. when i reached jss, i left my bags at the alumini room i went to jurong park together with annabelle, alfred and hui si. annabelle and i was in charge of the station that got to deal to eggs. the campers have to build a structure around the egg so that when we drop it from a height, it would not crack. quite alot of them did it. i have to say, the sec 1s this year are really atrocious! they seriously have an attitude problem. take for example, there was this sec 1 boy who stood on top of the rocks. then annabelle said, "get down from my rock!" she said this so that he would not fall and hurt himself. then he got down and stood at another rock. then annabelle said again: "can you get down from there?(or something like that)" the boy retorted and said, "this is not your rock what why i cannot stand?" wahhhhhh, dont you feel like scolding them? ok... then later, it is lunch. everyone went back to the canteen and the sec 1s were really nosiy. ang pei ming scolded them but they just continued to make noise. nevermind, the worst is not here. after lunch. it was PA(personal admin). oh ya, my station games that i was in charged was cancelled cause there was really no time. it was quite sad for me, but it's ok. you just have to learn how to improvise and adapt to the situation. a little sad but ya, nevermind. to carry on, the girls lined up and were given 3 mins to bathe. well, what do you expect from a camp? me, shir gi and yun kay initially allowed them to bathe one in each cubicle. then qiaoling, jie ying and jie xin said it was too slow, and wanted it to be two in one cubicle. and so, it was two in one. after everyone was done, we went to check the shower room. it was like a battle field man. the girls shower room was terrible. the floor had things that werent meant to be there. i dont want to say it, quite a disgrace. so, we went back to the hall and here comes the scolding. it wasnt in the plan intially to scold them. but they really were atrocious. so we spilt them into girls and boys. and the scolding started. i think the campers dont like me after that. but all i did was to scold them with a reason. then there was the usual pumping position to force them to own up to their mistake which they sturbbornly wont. what's wrong with owning up? if they just said it was them, they wouldnt even be punished. the culprit must be feeling so guilty during throughout. hopefully they learn something out of it. then later in the night, at about 4 plus 5 am. someone trigger the fire alarm. the glass that kept the key broke and it was obvious that someone did it. mr nur, the camp commandant was angry about it. he gathered all the instructors and kinda told us off a little. then, he gathered the sec 1s and counted the strength. everyone was present. then he told the campers to own up, whoever did it. the prime suspects were the boys from F4. mr nur said again and again for them to own up. but no one did so. he got really angry and ordered everyone to change into PE attire and report to the parade square in 5 mins. the intsructors did the same too. everyone was down there in no time. all the instructors thought that we had to be punished too so we stretched ourselves and got ready. i was thinking, "die, rowing sure die." but luckily, mr nur told us to get up when we were in pumping position. phew! at the parade square, mr nur told them again and again to own up, but as usual, no one did. so, here comes the interrogation one by one by mr lim. the boys from F4 were asked to come out and "talk" to him. it was a very long process. i think the culprit was still not caught yet. investigation is still being carried out. after that, it was about 7 already. time for morning pt. peng chong and bibi told over. wei hong and i then went up to the hall to look after the camper's belongings. we sat there at first, listening to songs and talked a little. later, wei hong just slept at on the stage. i was still listening to songs, but only for a while. i was too tired already, i just slept on the steps of the stage. then, i woke up an hour later and went to look for yun kay. this was the only time i slept for the two days. when i found her we went to get ready for rowing. and when we came back, it was PA again. chee keong or convinently known as ck came to then camp too. he drove all the way from penang. he was one of the instructors but he had to be excused from the camp cause someone passed away in his family. i hope he is doing fine. ok, back to it. he was in the hall, talking to the sec 1s. then sec 1s requested for them not to bathe cause they werent really dirty. wah... this is the first time a camper would make such request in the camp. ck refused and then they went on saying there was too little time to bathe and they dont want to bathe and kept insisting. wahhhh... then ck gave in a little by extending the time to 2 person 7 mins and they agreed. hai... sec 1s this year... the very first camp where campers dare to challenge the program and instructors. power... power... wah, i think i typed quite alot already. i think i should stop here for now and continue tomorrow on my story. hahaha... if not it gets broing if it is too long. so ciao! stay tuned tomorrow! :)

hahahahaha...

2005-05-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

oh man... yesterday was a bad day... i fell. yup, during inline skating. i didnt know what caused me to fall too. i just know that i lost my balance and there i was... on the floor. it was like i fall front and my chin absorbed the impact of the fall. ya, OUCH!!! now there is this big blue black on the left underside of my face. very unpleasant to look at... :( but it is healing, my mom had just used an egg to rub on it. hopefully by monday, it is not so obvious, even better still, gone! hahaha...

let's talk about today. i went for my first rowing lesson. it was fun!!!!!! my instructor was "xiao hei". haha... he's actually a malay but he's really dark. i guessed it must be from the constant exposure to sunlight. you must be thinking how old is he right? well, he's sec 3 this year. but he's good though he started just last year november. hahaha...

okok... the story continues... actually it was quite scary at first. the getting in part was the one. the boat was so small and long!!! and the seat was miserably tiny!! it just had enough space for your butt. then ok, after you got in, it was ok. wobbly at first but after you set the blades of your oars parallel to the water surface you kinda balanced the boat. so, i got in, holding onto the oars as i carefully sat on the seat. i screwed the right oar tight in position and i was set for rowing. then xiao hei told me the routine again. move front, open your arms, pull back, move back. it sounds esay right? but no! when you really do it, it is difficult. i did a few stroke and i felt myself moving a little. but, i was very shaky. i kept having this feeling that i am going to capsize. this feeling sucked. there was a couple of times when i nearly did. i was screaming and xiao hei was so funny. he was going... "dont scream... dont scream..." hahaha... well, i guessed my luck ran out and i did fall into the water. it was so deep and dark... scary... but....... hahaha... it was fun!! i mean the whole experience, the rowing, the unbalance and the falling. it was a great one. at least i tried something different. hahaha... i wasnt the funniest today. yun kay was the one. when she felt she was going under, she would just let go of her oars to grab her boat. it wasnt really a wise decision, the overall instructor said. cause if you let go of the oar to grab your boat, it will have a higher tendency to overturn. hahaha... it was really comical to see her to do that. hahaha... well, she went under also. in fact me, ren ling, jia min, yun kay, byran, kuan yee and eugene all fell in. hahaha... 7 out of 10 of us capsized. hahaha... you could see how tough it was. hehe... so that's all for the rowing. oh ya, we did it at pandan reservoir. the place was seriously ulu!!!!!!! and now i am so red. got sun tanned...

after the rowing, i met up with cui min and sin mun to get wei jie's birthday gift. yay! i finally got to see sin mun!!!!!!! hahaha... she look the same. and as for cui min, still as crazy. hahaha... hmm... we got wei jie a tshirt that will make him look younger. haha... i made him promised to wear it on the first day of poly. hehehe... he celebrated his day with dinner at marina bay... steamboat. i gave it a miss as i needed to study for my upcoming bio test. i dont want to fail anymore test already. so i seriously need to mug. i failed my math, 8/25. it was quite bad. the first time i failed my math. but nevermind, it's ok. practice makes perfect. hehe... i'm being optimistic here.

well, i written quite alot already. so ciao! nono... wait, i forgot! i saw aaron kwok!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was at imm!!!! last wednesday i think. after our ultimate frisbee... i'm so glad we went there to have our dinner! he is so handsome!!! so was luo jia liang! hahaha... lee xing jie is pretty. hahaha... i think they were to there to promote their new movie. hahahahaha... okok... now, that's really all... ciao!

sports day...

2005-05-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

sports day (friday) was a bang man! everyone ran sooooo fast! i was surprised by many of my friends. they can really run! hahaha...

my class got first in the heats and was classified into the A finals. they said that the A group consist of the cream of the crop--meaning classes that had real good timing. in the A finals, my class got in the 8th position. though it wasnt first, second or third, i thought it was great effort by them already. everyone did great. she min even fell and injured herself during the heats. and ya, lewis fell too. we were supposed to go for pizza afterwards but he fell and injured his knees. he told me that it bled quite a bit and a teacher had sent him home already. hope he's recovering fast. if you think they were the only two who fell, then u are wrong! a lot of people fell that day. i guess the ground must be either too slippery or they were simply going too fast. i certainly do hope that everyone is fine.

yay!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm going for my ex cg outing tomorrow!!!! i am so excited and happy!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! i can see sophia!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my siao siao partner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha... simply cant wait!!!!!!!!! 05S52 first intake rocks man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooohoooo!!!! hahaha...

under...under...underpants!

2005-04-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

oh my god! hahahaha... underpants is soooooooo funny! oh ya, it is a production by SAjc. we watched it at NUS cultural centre. it is so damn nice and funny!!!! but the content is very naughty and dirty to a certain extent. hahaha... the actors are so cool... especially CK. he was acting as versati, frank versati. so cute!!!!!!!!! hahaha... when he was acting there was no trace of that indian accent he had. haha... he was pretty articulate. nice! great! fabulous! hahaha... wonderful job drama club!

and ya, i had nooche for dinner today. it was not bad. i ate yaki udon and drank chendol ice blended in the nooche way. didnt regret it. it was awesome! gonna try other things there the next time. hehe... then we had cheese prata and dinosaur (milo with alot of milo powder on top) for supper. yes, very fattening!!!!! must exercise tomorrow already!!!!!!!! but it is ok lah. the cheese taste was very subtle. a little more cheese would be better. hahaha... so that's all... till the next time....... ciao!!

ssc rocks!!!

2005-04-23T15:08:00.000+08:00

oh man!!!! inline skating is sooooo fun!!! ssc rocks man!!!!!!!!! okok... let me start right...

today for my cca we did inline skating. it was soooo much fun!!!!! we were brief at first on what to do and what gears to wear. then we were separated into the beginners and intermediate group. i was in the intermediate group.

after we split up, the guy in charge was like. wah, so many ar?! hahaha... then, he got us to skate in a circle to see our standard. and he was going. all so good already. and i think he kinda looked stressed. hahaha... then he proceeded to teach us how to brake correctly. and we went to practice on our own. after we got the hang of it, he went wah, this group is good lah. so fast can liao. hahahaha... what a compliment. hehehe... he taught us how to cross. left and right. that i still cant master it. but i'm trying really hard. cause it looked damn pro! hahaha... ok. so that's what we learnt today. oh ya! the other coach, ken. oh my!!! he is soooooo pro!!!!!! he performed a few stunts today and it was soooooo cool!!!! haha... one day i'll be like him, hopefully... hehee...

then the day ended with ken debriefing. he was telling us he actually wanted to cancel our session today as he had another one, the company is je i think. but he didnt and cancelled theirs instead. and he didnt regret it. hahahaha... cause we were really high, gungho and good! hahahaha... i'm glad too that he didnt cancel ours. hahaha... so i am waiting impatiently for the next session..... next next friday. next friday was cancelled due to SA sports day. sad sad... but it's ok! haha... so till the next time............... ciao!

tang quartet!!!! so cool!!!

2005-04-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!!! tang quartet came to my school today!!!!!! hahahahaha... i am so happy!!!!!! they were really really good!!! let me start from the beginning...

i was coming out of the toilet behind the hall then i saw 4 plain clothes guys walking in and they were carrying some instruments. then in my mind i was going oh my!!!!! tang quartet!!! ahhhh!!!! then i went into the hall immediately and yes! it was really them! hahaha... they went straight to the stage and got ready, setting up the chairs and tuning their instruments. the teachers got us to settle down and i was sitting in front. why? this is the best seat to hear a string performance. hahahaha... then one of the teachers was like going through this boring transparency about the arts enrichment program of our school... blah... blah... blah...

after much anticipation, tang quartet finally address us!! they started off with a marvelous piece from mozart, i think the third movement. i cant really remember. but it was good. then leslie, the cello player introduced themselves. there was lionel, chek!!! and yuying. hahahaha... after which they continued playing, one after another. so cool man!!! when they started playing, it was as if i was listening to a cd. it was soooooooo wonderful! and when they play, everyone was communicating with each other; their eyes, smiles, body language and all. everyone was so focused. hahaha... so wow! and chek is sooooo cute!!!! he has such nice eyes and smile!!! hahahaha...

they will be having a concert this 15th of may. i am so going for it!!! i cant wait to hear they perform again!!!!! but first, i need to find a concert partner. hahaha...

oh ya, after their short but sweet performance, our dance society rehearsed for SYF and we were allowed to watch. oh man! it was good! really good! i'll be surprised if they dont get a gold. well, best of luck for this friday! i might be ponning school to watch them perform at kallang. hahaha... so long for now! ciao!

sports club...

2005-04-09T02:50:00.000+08:00

i am so damn tired now... but i cant go to sleep yet!!!!!!!! why? cause my hair is still wet... reached home at about 10.30 today... the sports club orientation was such a bang! the weather was good, windy and not too sunny. the events planning team really did a great job! planning a number of games in such a short period of time. truly remarkable! i salute them! i think rara was good too. all of us were on the high today... though there were somethings that werent that perfect and we could have done better, i think on the whole it was still a success... most of the second intakers enjoyed themselves. but sad to say, sports club is only taking in 40. which means 20 existing members and 20 second intakers when we had about 60 to 70 people today for orientation... hmmm... wonder who's staying...
wah, cannot take it anymore... my eyelids are getting heavier man... i really need some sleep... damn my hair... not dry yet... but my brain is not really functioning anymore... so i shall sign off now... ciao!

choir...

2005-04-08T02:20:00.000+08:00

oh ya, by the way, my secondary school choir got a bronze. i think i kinda saw it coming. cause i was there when they were practising for the last time. they didnt sound as good as the day before. but still, good effort! we just need to try harder the next time... thank you choir for achieving a medal for us! rock on!

two in one...

2005-04-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was funny... we were supposed to have a dry run for the orientation for sports club at west coast park. as we were making our way to the bus stop, the sky became gloomy. the sky above the gate was like grey and threatening to rain. and i cant believe it, we were actually making our way towards the rain instead of away from it. it's strange man... as expected, it rained. we ran towards our nearest shelter; the chapel of ressurection. but the first place we got to was full. the people standing there was like, "sorry, full house..." then we went a bit further up and stood at the place where the security guard was situated. there was quite a number of us there. luckily, someone brought umbrellas and we were ferried back to the foyer in threesome or pairs. in the end, we had the dry run in school. we carried out the wet weather plan. it wasnt really a dry run. we were just going through the games planned once more, enhancing it, making it tougher and more fun. hahaha. oh well, tomorrow is the real deal. hope it doesnt rain. it's gonna be fun! hahahaha...

hmmm, today, i went back to jurong sec for the camp meeting. i was supposed to go for the life concert in SA at first, but the meeting is more important, so i had to forgo it. i think lewis and annabelle seemed quite displease with me for not going. i feel kinda bad too. but it's ok to set our piorities right. the meeting was ok... nothing much. i finished the flow of game for my station games with the help of alfred! he rocks man! i was so close to pulling out my hair when he told me how to do it! the easier way of course. make me look so dumb. smart ass man! haha... then we went to jurong park to take some photos for the nature hunt. i think i was there to feed the mosquitoes. so itchy!!!! we didnt really finish taking the photos as pei ming had to go off and the camera belongs to him, so we had stop. we headed for mac and discuss the rest of the proposal. but then, most of the time we were just crapping and having fun... hahaha... that is just so us... the procrastinators! haha... but who cares?! we still get our job done! hahaha... that's all then, ciao!

it's nice...

2005-04-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

just wanna say, turn left turn right is not bad. quite a romantic love story... i like it... by the way, my school choir is performing tomorrow for SYF... hope that they can do well! achieve a silver for Jurong if possible!! jia you!

what to blog?

2005-04-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

actually i have nothing to blog... but some friends of mine, (you know who you are~~~ haha...) force me to blog... ok, here goes nothing...

i am feeling ok now. the weather is fine and i just finished what i had to do for my cca. watching a show currently; turn left turn right. sylvia said it is a boring show, but i am still watching. cause i read the book and i think it is nice...

hmmm, i got my uniform already. altered the skirt and wore the whole set for my parents to see. i think i look weird but they think otherwise... oh well, a difference in preference is always usual. no two person is entirely the same. really am blank now... nothing to write... oh ya, my senior class. i like them. they seem cool... one of them is actually from the same secondary school as me. we chat about jss. found out that he knows a couple of my friends. we're also playing the angel mortal game. but my mortal is not him, is another guy from his class.

i think that's all for today... really nothing else to blog... until the next time... ciao!

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2005-04-02T16:53:00.000+08:00

i was feeling so depressed the last two days and i still am. guess you know why if you had read the entry before this. i know i'm comparing it to my previous cg, but i am still human afterall... made of flesh and blood and feelings. i know things would and never could be the same anymore. what can i do? life is just like this. it pulls you down, testing how strong you are. i guess i'm not strong enough... my eyes would cloud with tears whenever i think of 05S52. sophia, gen, jean, johnny, amar, daniel, adeline, yunle, pei rong, zheng xian, baba, lucyboy, li jun, ya yun, wei jian, wei wei, tan xuan, qian qian, dawn, kian lim, uk, prash, joanna, audrey, mr ong and mr raja... how i miss you guys so much. i wanted things to be the same as before. but who am i kidding? it doesnt function this way... i love you guys and you'll always be in my heart!

i am not myself this few days anymore. not the hopeful and optimistic one anymore. i used to tell my friends to think on the brighter side whenever they feel down. but i realised that i cant do the same. i tried, but... yes, i know, i should try harder and yes, i am trying even harder now. time, i really do need time. only time can wash away all the pain and heal my wounds. i know i'm not alone on this. i'm very touched and glad that i have so many friends who are concerned about me. they talked to me, consoled me and told me things would get better. i know it would, somehow or another.

i should not be looking back so constantly anymore. yesterday is already history but tomorrow is still unknown. i must not wallow in self pity. this is not me. i need to find myself again. life tries to get me down, but i wont let it happen. i believe, with time, i'll be happy again...

it's quite long...

2005-03-30T15:17:00.000+08:00

i'm sad. really sad, disappointed and sad. why is it that my cg, 05S52 is being split up? some are in the prestigious S51, some in S53. and me? S54... the last class of triple science. i thought that at least genevieve, johnny and amar would be in the same class as me but who knows?!! johnny and amar are in S51(!!) and genevieve in S53. so disappointing. how i wish they would just put us in the same cg. one of my friends told me that you can actually request to be in the same class.......but, i think it really doesnt works that way. their request was void. everyone is in different classes. like what the hell?! she was actually told by a teacher that you can do this.
i know it is no use being all bitter about it. i told my friend who is in the same plight as me that we should look at things on the brighter side. but i just cant help whinning about it. i just love my cg soooooooooooo much. they really are a bunch of fun-loving and cool people. we spent three really fantastic months together.
well, i just hope that the people in my new cg are... well, fun too. things might not be as bad as it seemed. all the best to me tomorrow...

ok, enough of my whinning. the next part is about the past two days... the inductory program--double I. the main objective is to instill FEAR. i forgot what's F and E but i remembered that A is appreciation and R is respect. well, it is actually not a bad day camp...
day 1, we had PT from 8 to 12. did loads of jumping jacks!!!!!! so damn tired!!! the teachers were funny. especially my S52(sob:( ) pe teacher. he was scolding us about sense of urgency then "everyone has a play to part!" like er... you mean everyone has a part to play? this was then everyone started to laugh like crazy. haha... he is just being him i guess. the teacher who commits loads of mistakes. hahaha... i would always laugh at his mistakes during pe and he would say "dont laugh at me lah!" very cute right? hahaha... oh ya, after the pt we had lunch which was biscuits. yup, biscuits. we were supposed to feel how a tsunami victim went through. that i really dont mind, the victims are doing even worse than us. then, another 4 hours of gruesome talks. they were really boring! i actually slept halfway through one. i guess i was just too tired.
then day 2 (today), it started off with a talk on the history of SAJC. this was ok because i was intereseted. then we broke up into our og and went to discuss deeper about our core values. ya, boring!~ after that, it is another round of pt. it was so cleverly disguised. we were supposed to construct a vehicle out of bamboo sticks, a ball of raffia strings and anything we could find before we took on the challenge. guess what? we have to carry the vehicle with a casualty around as we run 6 rounds round the track, do 1000 pumpings, 500 sit-ups, 500 times of lifting the wooden log, accumulative of course, 25 burpis (how you spell it?), up and down the gallery with the casualty, monkey bars, suicide bar, the wall, and the rope. the only less physical one is the first station where we only used our brains to find our way out and the wet station where the objective is to get us wet. haha, like duh right? after all of this hidden pt, we took a group photo where we all sat in shapes of the letters : SAJC'05. my og was in the 0. this is a first time we did such a thing in SAJC and the teachers hope to continue it for many years to come. well, that's about all of the double I program.

so damn tired now, aching all over. there's still orientation tomorrow. i'm sure it would be much much more fun. my bed is beckoning me to lean on it. so ciao! till the next time...

finally...

2005-03-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

at last, i'm done with my blog. it really took me so damn long... looks like i really am the slow poke among my friends... haha..

i'm just done with my proposals for the camp. it took me so long; draining all of my brain juices thinking how each game should be played. cause i really forgotten about it. it was like a week ago when we last discuss about it. but all was worth it. i simply love camps! and the best part, i get to be the instructor! again! hahaha..

guess i'll go to bed soon. got to wake up early tomorrow for the camp meeting. ciao!

lalala~

2005-03-25T02:50:00.000+08:00

absolutely no idea of what to write... cos this is my very first entry of this blog. hahaha. erm... quite late already.. should get some sleep soon.. i shall blog tomorrow about tonight.. haha...